i'm sinking in this quiescence predicament. everything's been too stagnant and it's getting suffocating to breathe.
nobody knows, nobody knows. my inner emotions have already been filtered and emptied. i can feel what other people are feeling, but not for myself. and for a mere soul like me, that's something very ignominious i should say. i believe i've reached to a point whereby i'm letting everything to happen to anything because nothing seems to work the way i wanted or at least wished it to be despite my efforts. i still feel very empty and hollow, and i really just wanted to have someone who's nice and wise(it really doesn't matter who these individuals are) to talk about such matters and get it all cleared. i can jolly well picture myself drowning in a bottomless sea and hear my screams trapped in an abyss.
ramadan's ending really soon. everyone who is a muslim knows that it's a good period to repent and amend our mistakes. despite the holy period, i'm being utterly mean.
i really wanted this mortal to receive his/her comeuppance in this beautiful month. which is why i'm trying to grab all my chances and play this 'game' nicely.. and when the time comes, i'm gonna strike back hard! and i'm hoping that Black is not thinking otherwise uh. nyahahahaaa! with the flu bug and the fever i hate being under the weather and my nose is red like reindeer. ho ho ho!
now its already 1145pm. bye la.