Yupp, Science MCQs ended Prelims today. And finally, I'm able to make-up for all those loss of sleep. To those who'll be taking their POA paper tmr, good luck!

Eversince after the Sept holidays, I've learnt many new things that were once seemed convoluted or intelligible. I've become more observant than ever and I have long realised that, we should never ever take anyone for granted, for we shall pay a deadly price for that. Even though I've had my two slits open, many of my thoughts and envisions are still very much clouded and blurry. There were times ago where I longed for certain things to take place, but it never did. And that's because I was being too hopeful, and ambivalent on the other hand. After past events, I never hold my hopes too high eversince. It's just like a scene whereby you're wearing a pair of killer heels wanting to look all glamour and fabulous, but when you missed a step, all your fame shatters along with you. And you're left with just pure embarassment to spare. Get the picture? Nevertheless, I still believe in the saying - 'Patience is a virtue'. You may not get what you've wished for right now, but sooner or later, with lots of patience, that one great wish could just turn to reality. But it still comes with a condition, with busloads of hardwork. For that's the only way you'll able to grab your gold trophy.

The heart is the place where it conceals all your true deadly secrets and wishes. Lets face it. When we failed to succumb to our desires, we put up a nonchalant act, but inwardly, we felt devastated and disappointed. Deepest sigh. And when these scenarios take place, what would you do then?

I hope I don't sound like your grandmother or too absurd. I'm just trying to clear some vague thoughts that have been playing in my mind for quite some time. Now, I'm wondering where would I be 6 years from now. Would I be developing my career by then or would I further my studies to somewhere? Soon, all of us would be materialistic one way or another and would spend big bucks too. We want to travel and explore. Who doesn't right? But without dreams and perservearance, where would it take you?

Perhaps most of you might be wondering why am I bringing up a topic that might seem irrelevant to some of us. But I stand strong by my beliefs and opinions that we ARE old enough to shape and mould our future despite our age - and even though we come from different family backgrounds. It irks me a lot to see people of our age not QUITE daringly enough to take a step further to reach for the stars. Prolly they are too blinded by money and other unnecessarily wants. But it irks me even more to see people being ambivalent and unsure of their ardour of what they want the most. The probability of those who would give such apathetic answers like, "Don't know yet. See first how," or "If it's fated, let it be. I cannot do anything what," is perhaps, 1/3. And oh, I'm not saying this to take against whoever, but my thoughts have just gone deeper and I'm just doing this to quell this thought.

Btw, I sure know what I want right now. Do you?

Bah. May this entry make your brain be more indiosyncratic whatsoever. Sheeesh. And I've finally agreed that my readers are all gone except for those true readers of mine. HAHAA!

Okay, now for the random post. The long awaited fasting month is now here. Ahhh! I definitely can't wait. Like many other years, I do hope that I would be able to fast with ease and refrain myself a little bit more from saying FUCKYOUKNNBCHCBKNSASSHOLICDRUNKARDSHITFUCKTARD and many others. Nyahahaaa! I just love it when the deejays started playing the raya songs on the radio. It makes me feel like I'm a kid all over again. And it sure reminds me of the times when I would sing those raya songs with my brother at the top of my lungs. Ahhh, such sweet memories yeaaa. =D

Right now, its time for me to give my two slits which you called eyes, some rest and peace.