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Monday, March 27, 2006, 9:44 pm
Dear TPL,

Time passed and without we knowing it, we've been together for quite some time. Its great to be with you guys and to spend time with you all. It takes quite some time for me to get used to you guys since i was the only female in the band. Although i have known most of you either in primary school or in secondary school, i must admit that the bonding wasn't there yet. But now, i'm beginning to enjoy our sessions and jamming practises together.

I know that some of our fellow bandmates may seem to be pretty demanding and unreasonable at times. But you guys played it cool and i admired your courage for that. I really do. Misunderstandings and confusion often occured amongst us. But its normal for every band to have such problems. And sometimes, its scares me when i see yall quarrel with each other.

Those who are close with me will know and strongly agree that i have an attitude problem. i can be so nice you, and be such a total bitch the next. temperamental - is the word. i'm trying my best to control my temper, but when i can't take it anymore, i'll just give you the silent treatment. None of yall have seen me cry. Nor have any of yall heard me cry except for Eez. Its hard being the only girl in the band, as most of my opinions is not being heard. Yall never take me seriously except when i'm having my AP. Yes, we're in a band, and we're in this thing together. BUT, you guys take me for granted. I'm your bandmate, your trumpeter and your friend. But why am i not included in our band affairs? Maybe, you just see me as a girl and a useless trumpeter that's stuck in your ska band, which you can't wait to get rid of.

NONE of yall except Eez tried to ask me whether i'm alright or whether i'm having any problems. It really hurts me. It really do. Because actions speak louder than words, and your actions showed that yall doesnt care about your fellow bandmate/s.

I know where i stand and i know that i'm not a good player, but i always give my best in everything that i do and ensure that i will never give up and will keep on trying till i get my parts correct. But instead of giving me encouragement, you guys are pressurizing me - one way or another.

I have my own prorities too. I can't always spend my time with yall, cos there are other things that are equally important to me too. I have to proritise my family, studies, friends and TPL. Of cos family comes first, but i'll always try my best to squeeze in my time for yall and my family. I even cancelled my plans with my friends and family just to put you guys in my top list. But what do i get in return? NOTHING. Thus, i've learn my lesson and told myself to be more firm and not to be a fool anymore.

And if anything happened to any of you guys, I won't gain or lose anything. I won't even care. Because, I'm just your trumpeter and nothing else. You didn't showed any concern in the first place, and why must I? I'm not even included in any of the band affairs. I'm invisible in your eyes, and when you guys in need of a trumpeter, that's when I'll appear.

I have thoughts about leaving you guys, and maybe..just maybe, I will.